It's been a Struggle...

this month for me has been an absolute roller coaster. Happys and worries and sads and just plain hards.

The Happy

Well like I have already posted before we had a beautiful niece born, Ayla rose Ulrich. I haven't seen her yet and I probably won't for a little while since she is trying to recover. But everytime I look at the pictures of her and read about her I just love her so much already. She is a little miracle baby and she is so blessed to have the parents that she has. I was talking with my Father-in-Law the other night and he was just talking to me about her and telling me how darn cute she is and that she is a true fighter. He was also telling me what good parents Chris and Stac are going to be to this little thing. I just can't wait to meet her, hold her and just be a part of her life. Babies are my weakness I abolutely love to hold them but when they are a new part to your family it is truly special.

The Worry

I just have been so worried about my little brother latety with everything going on with him. I don't know what it is about Adam but so many people fall in love with his personality. He is so fun, energetic and my favorite loves his family. He is a little crazy on the outside with all his different hair dos and pierced ears but let me tell you everyone who takes the time to get to know him knows what an incredible person he really is. I feel like Adam and I have a really good relationship. when I moved back home for a while before I got married I felt like that time was really good for me, Adam and my little sister Amanda. After moving away and then coming back I think we just all realized how much we missed each other. That time was so good to be able to develop better relationships with them both. I won't trade that semester home for the world. I really got to see who Adam was developing into, the things he cared about and was passionate about and things he was really good at.

He is a really amazing person and I just believe he is trying to find himself right now. As of now he is not preparing to go on a mission. I know how important missions are and I am so happy that Ty went on a mission and I know it is what the men in this church are supposed to do. But I love my little brother and I am not going to judge him on that. I mean of course I still hope deep inside that he is still going to go and maybe it will happen but I just know whether he goes or doesn't I believe he is going to find himself and that he is going to be who he is supposed to be. He is also about to join the Utah National Guard. He has talked to the recruiter down in Salt Lake and then the recruiter came to talk to him the other day as like an interview at my parents house. He seems really excited about it and I am so proud of him for doing something like this. I think it will be so good for him. I love you little Bro, you are always keeping us on our toes.

So anyway I have been worried about him a lot this month because of all his happenings. First of all he was break dancing and came down wrong on his arm or shoulder and tweeked it pretty bad and had to be out of work for a while because of it. Second last Saturday I got a text from my mom saying "Adam's car got stolen last night they found it this morning in Magna." I was like what? Slow down. I have to read that again. and then of course I had to call my mom to get the details.Now that he has it back a lot of things were stolen from the inside and they did something to it because ever since he has gotten it back it hasn't been working. I feel so bad for him because he had worked so hard to get that car and then worked really hard on it fixing it all up and stuff. Poor kid. Hang in there everything is going to work out

The Sad

Well this is sad and a worry. I got a call from my dad last week telling me that my grandma Bargar was in the hospital and they didn't know what had happened yet. But that she might have had a stroke or heart attack or both. I was so scared and baffled because my grandma isn't even very old. I didn't think old enough for all of this happening to her. So I was super worried and sad because when I was all alone when I found out so I called Ty at work and they let him come home. The next day my mom called to update us and grandma was doing better they now thought that it wasn't either a stroke or a heart attack but she was low on oxygen. She had been sick and because of all the coughing and her immune system being down she was low on her oxygen consumption. They kept her at the hospital to do some more tests. Well then the next we heard she was still in the hospital and being transfered to another one for exploritory surgery on her heart because they thought they had seen something that needed to be check out. So the latest now is that the surgery went fine and they didn't see anything. Poor grandma she has been through a lot lately. We love you and our prayers are with you.


And the just plain hard

Well Ty and I are in a place right now where we don't know what our future holds. We have no idea where we will be going to law school in the fall, we don't know where or when we are going to be moving, I don't know where I will be doing my teaching licensure, or how long it is going to take and most of all we have been back and forth of when to start our own little family. It is hard not knowing where we are going to be moving because we can't even start looking for apartments or houses yet. I am so proud of Ty for taking this step in his life and I am so excited to see what our furture holds and I just want to know so badly where we will be. I just have to have faith that we will end up where we are supposed to be and where Ty will have the best education for him personally. I need to have faith that I will get to be a mom one day and I just need to be patient and find out what our furture holds first. It is just really tough for me to wait any longer. Babies are always on my mind and everytime I hear the words baby, children, kids, pregnant I just have the best feeling in the whole world. But it will come I know it will. As for where we end up in the fall we will keep you all posted when we find out.

Some new Additions.... or shall I say eXtEnSiOnS!

There are two new additions in my life but of course the most important is our new little niece Ayla Rose Ulrich. She was born yesterday morning 7 weeks early. Scary but from what we have heard mom and baby are doing fine :) I just have to say when Chris sent us a picture of her early that morning my heart just melted. I don't know why but seeing her got me really emotional. I cannot wait to see her and hold her. It is so crazy to me that all of a sudden you have this little living thing that you are responsible for. Isn't creating life just amazing and a miracle?! She is such a blessing for Chris and Staci and we are so stinkin excited for you two that you have this sweet baby girl in your life now. We love you guys and we hope that you will keep us posted on everything and give her kisses from her uncle Ty and aunt Whitty.

And now not even close to as important, but still exciting to me, I got extensions on Friday. I know this isn't a very good picture to see them because of the hoodie but it is all I have of them right now. They aren't super long because of how short my hair was that would look silly and you would be able to tell I have them. And isn't the whole point is for them to look natural? Well anyway my hair was way too short and not getting longer because of the ends just breaking off from damage so my awesome extensions added about three more inches of length. My hair was only to about mu nose (I know crappy and ugly huh I hated it) and now it is an inch past my chin.

I only got them in the front so it is a sharp A-line and super duper cute. even just getting them in the front I had to get a million because of my stinkin hair is way to thick. But I can actually put my hair in a pony tail now and it looks way healthier. I totally love them and I am going to get so addicted. The only problem is they are expensive but hey so worth it. My talented friend Natalie that did my bangs also did these extensions. She is the one that gave me the idea to just do them in the front. And right you were missy I love them. She has been so good to me doing my hair so much lately. I feel like a whole new person with longer hair thanks Nat! You are one of the most talented people I know :)

Getting into ShApE...and more

So I am starting these new aerobic classes that I am super duper excited for. My friend Runge introduced me to this incredible workout. they are free aerobic classes at the SUU PE building. The instructor is super cute and I totally want her body she is such as inspiration. But anyway she offers a whole bunch of classes through out the week. Abs lab (everyone's favorite so she teaches it three times a week), Plyometrics, hip hop (which I totally want to try probably next week), body Pump, and kick boxing! She went to school to be an instructor and she is so amazing at it. It is funny but one of the things I want to do in life is be a PE teacher but I also want to teach aerobic classes to high school students or athletes. :) Probably weird but i really want to work up to that goal. The best part about these classes is that they are FREE! Love it.
So on Tuesday I went with Runge to the Plyometric and Abs Lab. Let me tell you that plyometric class was crazy. It was so hard and I was sore for three days after, but I can't wait to go again. I hadn't had a work out this good since I was in gymnastics. I even work out at a gym three-four days a week and ru 20 min each time I go and this was still so much better and different of a workout. My thighs, hamstrings, calfs and butt were all sore. everything it was amazing. If I didn't work nights I would love to go to all of her classes. Plyometrics is athletic training and jump drills designed to make you jump higher, run faster and increase overall fitness. It consists of 4 30 second drills followed by 30 seconds of rest for an hour and is HIGH intensity. LOVE it! I also went to an abs lab which I loved so much it was full of all sorts of different ab exercises and lasted 30 min.

I just want abs like hers ^ :)

I also am super excited about our newest purchase! We got a Dell Desk Top. I love it so much. My laptop's harddrive crashed after only having it one year and Ty's also needs to be fixed from a virus. Well the day that we took my lap top into the shop and found out it was the hard drive my brother Chris called us and told us about the sale that SUU was having on used desktops so we just had to check it out. We got there and the computers were in awesome shape. We got a nice Dell computer, monitor, mouse and keyboard for only $110! Sweet huh. It was a lifesaver and it looks brand new.

Also this week we finally got the internet. I love having our own we are finally able to get online in anypart of our house. Before there was only one spot in our livingroom that we were able to get in from the neighbor (haha) and if you moved it would kick you out. So now I am able to blog in bed while Ty is sleeping he is happy about that because he used to wait for me to get done and sometimes it was really late. One thing that is kinda a pain is that because we don't have a cable jack in the middle bedroom and don't want our computer in our bedroom or livingroom we had to pay $60 to get a wireless router and card for our desk top. Lame! oh well. Internet is worth it. Silly thing to be way excited about but we love it! Thank you Bresnan.